Does this make me look fat?

"Do I look fat in this?" "Wait, let me suck it in." "Do you think that I need a Spanx?"

We have all asked these questions at one time or another, struggling with weight insecurities. Completing this spur of the moment, ready-made photoshoot was a big step for me. It allowed me to embrace myself and be ok with lumps and bumps. Let's face it, I'm no longer 120 lbs. Now, 20 lbs. heavier, I struggle with my thick thighs that rub together, my stretch marks across my ass, my stubborn stomach fat.... And let's not forget these back rolls (crying). 

It's hard adapting to a new body. It is also hard getting a new body every 3-4 years. 

Like any other woman, I just want to be comfortable in the skin that I am in. Why is that so hard?

It's hard because, I like Baked Chocolate Chip cookies with Butter Pecan Ice Cream. It's hard because, I don't like eating Grass. It's hard because I do not like physical activity, at all, what so ever!!!

Now don't get me wrong, I still want to be someone's Body Goals. But, I want to do that with, my Grandmother's hips and my mother's thighs. 

That there, is MY DEFINITION OF BEAUTY. 

With the quarantine taking place, I made the decision to make some healthier changes. And honestly, I did not want to be 160 lbs. again, LBVS. 

I started eating slightly better, but still eating my cookies and shit. 

I took advantage of some of the weekly Live Yoga classes that became available and purchased 2 at home workouts from local trainers. I started going for walks, 1-2 miles at a time. 

Now at 140 lbs., I am much happier with the way I look. I am still not at my goal of 135 lbs. but, it’s now in my view and I know that I will reach it. 

I encourage all of you beautiful ladies who read this, to DO YOU SIS. Be as you are and most beautiful. Do not let any of these images, suggesting one to have the perfect body, discourage you from being anything other than who you are. if you want to be big, be big. If you want to be small, be small. 

Embrace yourself. Love yourself...... Do what you want to do with your body, for you and no one else. 

"If you can't love yourself, how in the hell can you love someone else." -Rupaul Charles